My life has gone proceeded in new and unknown directions for some time now. I've found relief and joy in one element, the internet, taking a back seat to my daily activities. Most days I will watch youtube twerk videos or foods from around the globe, watch a movie or show on some other streaming service, and above all else I listen and explore music. I decided to take a break from everything else for the most part. Everything else being things that other people are making me look at. Social media became a compulsive physical routine in my daily life and I constantly would look up from my phone or laptop to take a sip of coffee and find it'd gone cold id been absorbed for so long. This was ok for me because I dont mind cold bitter coffee but I began to realize how much of my life I was spending with nearly zero return on my attention investment. I needed a break from it all, a reassesment of it. It's been nearly a year since I took the break. The first few weeks were rough, my body and my thumbs would fumble that the applications that used to be my everyday were no longer there and they didnt know what to do with themselves. It got easier as my addiction got replaced elsewhere like trying to learn a new language, taking more photos on my phone because I had so much more space all of a sudden, I went back to physically writing in my journals, sketching more, and most of all really started to wonder what my friends and family were doing so I began reaching out for contact more. I was always suprised at news of new babies or divorces, of car crashes or promotions, I no longer had the inside scoop on everyone. It was rewarding in a sense and sad in another. Im still thinking it all over too much and as usual. I think I'll take a break.
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